Art Work By: Angelina Wrona "Dee Dees Hideout"
Do you ever have those smack yourself in the forehead moments?
I had one last night.
I have not told my employer or employees why I am off sick. All they know is ...I'm off sick.
I have been using Twitter as a means of meeting others with my illness. I have been posting my blog link there. I did this all under my real name. Anyone could look me up, ANYONE!
Last night this thought occurred to me and that's when I did it. I smacked myself in the forehead and under my breath muttered the words "what have I done"?
I mean really!? What was I thinking. I am now convinced that someone from work has looked me up and the "story of my life" has been spread throughout the store. This realization is not working so well with my BPD way of thinking. I am FREAKING out. I have now deleted my beloved Twitter account and started a new one under a new identity. It won't be easy rebuilding but it's all I could do.
I was not ready to go back to work as it is but now, I feel I just can't.
Perhaps I should request a transfer to another location?
I'm not really sure what to do at this point. Any suggestions?
2 comments:
People can surprise you sometimes. You may find more support than you think. I would not use my real name in the future, but I would not spend too much time worrying about something you cannot change. What's done is done. Deal with it if and when you're confronted and remember that you are not less deserving than the next person just because you have a chronic illness.
I'm not sure what I will say to my employees if they did find out. You are right though. What's done is done. I'm not worrying about it too much lately.
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